Went to Boonkeng just now at around 7plus, met with Charlene,Xueting & those guys. I thought I finally can see him like after a few days, but he goes off before I reach, and before I can take a look at him. Saying its going to rain is just an excuse, I suppose. So once more, I fucking broke the agreement ive made, I took one again. I hate myself being like that, decided & broke again. Just that everyday I made contact with those people, the same thing happen, the same words come out from their mouth. Though its already happening for quite long, but do you think I really feel nothing when I heard that? All those remarks that your've made, I just turn a deaf ear, i'm prepared for more hurtful and unbearable remarks. I just have to accept whats going on, cos nobody gonna pull me out of it. It's really hard to melt a iceberg, but im trying really fucking hard, just for you just that you never realise. I found myself in a situation that I can't give up, and end this game. So I just have to wait and wait, till the end I may not get anything but i'm just stupidly willing, that's me.


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