Firstly, Happy 1month with your boy, GJH :) You'll always be that sweet.

Everyone tends to change, more or less, by themselves unknowingly when they got into a relationship. They might not aware that they'd changed, but friends around them knows it all. Well, be focus in a relationship is not wrong, even if you spent lesser time with gfs its okay. Just that, seeing you're happy, everyday with a smile on your face, laugh like madwoman, i'm happy for you too girl. There'll be more and more months ahead, I know you will last long, faith in you. Loves you no matter what :L

Gotten back report book ystd, parents meeting session. Yea, form teacher complained ALOT to mum, about me walking around disturbing people, defiant and etc. Say until as if I got those illness that I need to eat medicine to control myself from walking around =.= I'm not crazy okay, just that I can't sit at my place for too long unless i'm tired. Ok results, of course its a bad one, very. Its the worst result i've ever had in my life, seriously, i've failed damn badly. Always regret after what i've done when it shouldnt be done, whats the use of regret? I don't understand, but well, seeing those disappointed faces of my family really makes me feel so guilty, i've never felt like this before till now. Sometimes my family is really damn unreasonable, but they're really supporting at times. How complicating. I know i gotta buck up for the next half year, if not the consequence will be very shameful, r-e-t-a-i-n. NO! I dont want! I need and must be focus after june hols, hopefully it works on me and turns out well. I dont wanna see those disappointing faces again.

Its hard to quit, you'll never know till you've tried. I don't lie to those that I love, i'm trying. But I just can't escape from the influence. Everytime when i've decided, something just makes me keep on wanting it, there goes again, I broke it once more. I guess, i'll just let it be the way it want to be. I can't promise anything, i'm afraid that i'll never make it true.