Went over Kb to meet Vivian in the afternoon, then met up with Char in the late aftnoon. My mind still keep repeating what happened just now, I don't wanna mention or elaborate any further about that matter cos its over. I only know that, back at that time, I am really motherfucking sot! I know I shout like one mad woman, I know i've already lose face infront of dude, all these I know. I mean my words, if dude dint push or pull him away, I think now he's already into trouble or what. Somethings I don't understand is, there's other guys around there, why isn't them whom pull or push him away but dude? Gavin told me, yl say dude use alot of strength to pull/push away from me. I am really wondering, I don't wanna think too much but I can't help it. Maybe he just don't want yl to get into trouble, maybe he don't want friends friends got problem over trivial matters, maybe he don't want his friends to get hurt, i'm thinking all these to stop me from thinking far. Whats actually on your mind when you did that, dude? I can hardly guess what you're thinking. Well, shall not elaborate on this anymore, made me sot.

I think my previous post is emo eh? But whatever, its my blog, my emotions. If you ever hide your emotions, you're so stupid, stupid like fuck. Now things back to normal I guess, I just hope we'll still talk laugh and joke like normal friend. Bday boy gonnabe in 6 days :) Hoping from now till that day, everything will go smoothly.

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Boyboy, I know you hardly read my blog, but this part is for you. Don't be so hard on yourself yea. Its the first time seeing you tear, I don't wanna see again. I can't imagine everytime you behaved like so happy, and suddenly see you tear cos of that matter. I exactly understand how you feels, but just let things goes itself, & don't think about it too much alright. Everybody love you, remember :D