Time check is 0125. School tmrw at 0730, and i'm still awake right now, despite sleeping for only 3hours plus ytd. Now, my mind was very messy. I've got alot of things stucked on my mind, and they can't wait to explode. I'm mentally tired, srsly. Things just went wrong at the wrong timing. On a lighter note, I still got my girls, sist and buddy as my strength.

I told myself, I shouldn't be doing all these, saying all these right now. Its uncalled for. If I can choose to be happy, why not? I'm stupid enough to think of hurting everyone around me, esp guys. Pretty disappointed with myself. How can I have such mindset? I tasted the feeling of being hurt, I shouldn't go round hurting people. As it won't make me happier too. I should just learn to accept the facts, forgive all the mistakes, forget all the memories, and carry on. It all takes time cos i'm not made of steel, I can't possibly forget such things that fast. Often, I thought that if I can be someone who's real flirt and fickle minded. So that I won't be hurt. Someone whose heart can have alot of people. Such a pity, I can't. My heart can only have 1 person. I can be unfaithful, but I won't be a heartbreaker.

Afterall, I tried so hard to win his heart I failed. The love you want I can't give, the love I want you can't give too. So well, let's forget abt all the unhappy things. We'll be back to friends again, real good friends. I can only call you, bro, now. No matter how heart aching its going to be, i'll survive.