Hi. I'm blogging only now its because internet encountered some problems ytd night, so I can't use. Went town ytd with Kb cliques, yeah it was great, definitely. They brought fun to me, which allows me to temporary forget my sorrows. I've so many things to say. I guess this is the only space, I can write unlimitedly. * First time ever, I used fml, srsly just fuck it upside down.*

From friday till now, I hadn't really been into good mood. Everything was still fine when i'm with buddy, talking and stuffz, till I received a text from him. From the very beginning, the very first text he sent to me, he said sorry. Well, seriously sorry don't cure. Hurt will still remains. And, i'm the one who's going to suffer all these, not you.

Maybe, my attitude sucks hardcore. Maybe, i'm not that innocent that you wanted. Maybe, I didn't do well enough to convince you with my heart. Maybe, everything's just too late. But my love to you is never fake. No doubts, your words are contradicting enough. However, I don't expect much from you too. Cos I know, mostly guys are not trustworthy. You told me, you were being too hurt, and you won't trust girls that easily anymore. Now you're telling me, you fall for another girl. Before that I asked you, you say no one. This is fucking hurtful. But I won't force you to come back cos I know it's useless and you won't.

Truth is, you don't belongs to me. Time proven everything. If you belongs to me, it alr happen long ago. I should just accept and forget. I didn't cry for a period of time, thanks for letting me cry it all out. Yes, ALL. I felt so much better, next day with swollen eyes. The memories will stay, cos it only belongs to both of us. But will you take the pain away? No. Time will eventually fades off everyth, I hope.

She's a lucky girl, she's pretty, she's innocent, hope you won't hurt her like how you hurt me. Allow me to be the last one for you to hurt. Cos I loved you once, I wanna see you happy. Boy, you don't have to feel guilty or wait till i'm better then you get on with her. I know you needs time to know her more before stepping into a serious r/s. But time won't wait for you. Once you lose it, its forever. So now i'm gone from your world, I won't step into it anymore. I'll give you peace, and at last i'm letting myself to have peace too. I'm just a text away, you still can text me regarding anyth, if you trust me. If you don't, i've got nthg to say either. Normal talking and stuff, for now is impossible. I've yet to sort out my thinkings and my feelings well.

I've got alot of questions to ask you. After having second thoughts, I think it through. Its really no point to keep brooding over so much. I'mma strong girl, I told myself. This is just like an accident, everything happen so fast. I didn't even get mentally prepared, it alr happened. Perhaps you were right. Don't prolong the pain as i'll be even more upset if you told me later. Its a matter of time whether to get hurt now or later, but it definitely will hurt. I've been thru all these for numerous time alr, still feeling hurt, but I won't use whatever methods to make you mine. Cos, you don't belong to me. I kept repeating this to myself. Its nobody's fault, remember. If one day, I talked to you, its the day I let you go. Forget abt the promise you made, abt spending the remaining days you left in this school. Let her be the one with you. Even if how much i'm afraid to lose you, how much I hate this feeling of losing someone I love, I will let go.

Just give me time, i'll forget you, promise.