It's a Sunday morning now. Let me tell you how I spent my Sat ok? I went to slack at st george. Can't imagine my sat was spent like that. Left with a few more sats, I hope i wont waste it all.

Just had a tiff with mum. Just when I wanted to start blogging, she suddenly told me, dont let her catch that I smoked, I use my allowance to buy cigarettes. Or else i'll get if from her. Its like suddenly you know, of course I stunned. Then there goes her nagging. But I know if I never talk back, she will talk like free flow, so I asked how long you still wanna nag. Get scolded again. Fuck, damn pissed off. Its all about money that she's trying to say. I know for some people, one day allowance $10, its more than enough. But for me, its barely enough! Cos other than eat, I got other expenses. Everytime keep asking me to save money to get my own clothes and stuffs, how the hell am I going to save monet to buy my things when my allowance for one is only $10 for 2 meals?! Hey, we're talking about Singapore here, living in a materialistic place, when everything talks about money do you really fucking think one day $10 for 2 meals enough? And i'm not a small girl anymore. Preferably young, but not small. I'm fucking going to reach SIXTEEN in 22 days! Just approx 3 weeks! Sixteen is not consider small anymore! Srsly I dont understand adults. Their mindset is, we young people wont have problems, be it money matters, love matters or personal matters. Wtf! We are also human, we also fucking have some feelings with us. Argh! I just feel like getting out of this house. Some days in future, when I can afford expenses myself.

Okay that part is family problems, now is my love problems. Didnt cry for a month or so, and I feel so good. Because there aint anybody out there hurting me.:) The last time I cried so hard was last month, and I wont let myself fall down anymore. Its all about control. I totally agree with, when your heart is empty, nobody's occupying your heart, you'll feel damn carefree and relaxed. Well, its not that my heart is empty, just that ive been thinking about guys lesser. Its been a month plus since I last seen E, life still goes on like that. I also dont know why i didnt really purposely think of him, or miss him. If its in the past, I will surely use all means just to see him. Still remember the craziest thing ive did is, take train all the way to Choa Chu Kang, lot 1 just to see him. Power, I know. Hah. Okay ive typed alot, ciao now.

Btw, happy 16th b'day qianya! :D