Hey, it's 4 in the morning naw. And it's my birthday, i'm the b'day girl. How should I describe my feelings right naw? Okay basically, I don't rly feel very happy neither am I feeling very upset. Well, who says b'day is always a good one, and must feel happy, right? Sometimes, things just happen at the timing when you had the least caution for. Boy. Do you know that, the things you said, and you did, ain't same infront of me and behind my back? You told me you can't get over the past, but few days later you're gonna may be together with another her. I wanted to ask you. So what am I exactly to you? But I don't wish to, cos I know you definitely will give me an answer that I won't want to know. Why will I find things to hurt myself? Great joke uh, no way. I'm feeling pretty disappointed in you. That doesn't mean my feelings to you has ceased. I just wanna rant cos I don't wanna keep it in my heart. I will feel damn awful. Cry? I don't wish to, it'd been awhile since I have swollen eyes. I don't want the person to be you. I still want you to remain like how you are in my mind, temporary. However, if you rly be with her, I will wish you. I definitely know it can't be forced so I won't. Just be happy, boy. Maybe i'm better off without you. Maybe I will miss you badly when you're gone. But you wouldn't know a single shit abt it.

K la, I don't want to let these things to affect me as it's my b'day. I don't wanna ruined it. NO! I'm gonna have my beauty sleep right after I post this, and enjoy my sweet 16teen b'day later on! I'm kinda looking forward to tomorrow noon and night session.:) So ciao naw!