im not kai xin.
im not feeling good naw, nao, now. Motherfucker.
Things was normal from the starting, just a little cold. But it's ok, im used to coldness now. Suddenly, we just talked like volcano erupt. Fyi, im just being sarcastic to say that. I can no longer keep mum, no longer acts like I don't give a damn when I see the way you talked to her. In fact, i felt that as if my heart is gone. You won't know how hard im feeling, you won't know how terrible it was to spend my night sleepless even though I cried till my eyes swollen but it doesnt make me tired. You wont know whats the feeling when im having insomnia just becos im thinking of you too much. You'll never ever know. I thought i will get over you very soon, but i failed. I guess i just fucking overestimate myself. All you ever do was to judge me. Yea fucking judge me. I don't care how other people judge me, but you are exception! And you said so many hurting words to me. You never think about my feelings. You only care about how you feel.
From the starting, we shouldnt have known each other. I shouldnt have talk to you. I shouldnt have fall for you. I shouldnt have let you occupy my heart for almost half. I SHOULDNT. You dont bother about my feelings, you enjoyed playing games with her, calling her baby, saying you love her. When i wished you, do yknow how much it hurts right inside my heart? I don't wanna let my heart suffer anymore srsly. You said im playful, but however you too. Im letting go. Give me some time. And once i let go, i wont come back to you. I guess you dont need me either.....
