Hi. I'm not feeling okay, but you won't know that.

It's funny when you cry over someone who don't appreciate. It's even ridiculous when you don't even know why did you actually cry. It felt so terrible, so awful, the feeling of suppressing your own feelings to the least cuz' you're afraid of the thought people have on you, and worst still he don't even know your feelings towards him. I feel so heartbroken, when I know i'm not the one you turn to when you face problems alone. I feel so speechless when you no longer believe me and listen to me like how you used to. I'm afraid of this, when someone once so close with me, suddenly things just changed. I felt baffled too, why am i feeling this way in sucha short time. I know I shouldn't, in the end i just fell so hard. I'm sick of falling. I'm sick of nagging. I'm even sick of being the bad person everytime. I will just be there by your side, when you need me. That's the least I can do. I hate myself now srsly. I don't know why i'm behaving like this, totally no idea. And i shouldnt. I don't wanna be a crybaby, i shouldnt. From now, i'll stop. I hope i mean it.