oh well, i'm here agn. I'm feeling happy, guilty, and felt like as if something's missing. Happy because, after so many strugglings and tears droppings, finally i've an answer. Guilty because, she made me felt as if i'd snatched away him. In fact I didn't do anything that imply him that I like him. Well it's okay. Something's missing because, he's not with me now. Going prison, hahah retarded.

I just feel that, I like him so much. His words can affect me alot, my mood, and my everything. I think, i'm letting go of E. It's been the 5th year, so what did i get? Nothing. Waiting for someone impossible are both tiring and pointless. Even if ckw and I don't have future or we don't last, its okay. I am strong enough as i'd so many encounters to make me strong. I won't regret on something i did, someone i love, i will only regret that i should have be smart enough to see it coming. This is me. I'm happy now, yes. I don't know how long will this last, but I will try my very best to keep it going and maintain.:)