Its going to be daybreak soon, look at the time. Well actually I decided not to blog, but i end up here cos i need a space, i got so much things to say. Im afraid that if i don't say out, im gonna faint. Im not being emotional, but people around and things around just don't let me have peace. Ive been rather stressed up these few weeks, and its so enoughhhhhhhhh. I.need.to.rant.NOW.

So had a quarrel with parents and siblings, just ytd. Everytime we quarrel, i'll cry, yes its everytime. I felt so useless in this home. To be honest, they gave me freedom, they tried to gave me whatever i wanted, they made me feel that somehow they still love me. But they don't know what i really want, deep down in my heart. In this house, there's no one i can confide, yea no one. All busy working, and im studying if not im out. The reason why i rather stay at outside than at home is cos, to avoid quarrels with my mum. We're like enemies previous life, never know when we will quarrel or fight. And, i got nothing to do at home, srsly nothing other than watching tv. Who will enjoy this kind of life? Even if ive got 0 cents in my purse, i'll insist on going out. Kay enough of family matters.

I don't understand why do i always either fall for the wrong person, or fall for the right person at the wrong time. Srsly i dont understand. Maybe its fated to be, i shall just surrender. Falling for you was never a mistake or regret. Im thinking about giving up, but i could hardly decide. Cos to me, giving up are only losers. I dont rly give up on something i wanted so much, or someone. But this time, he made me feel we're so impossible, and i dont wish to get hurt in the end. I dont wana have sleepless nights till i nidda rely on flu tablets to make myself sleep. The feeling of when yknow you're almost there and yet all your hopes are gone, and you dropped all the way down. Its so terrible, i'd this feeling before and i dont wish to feel it agn. Well, i think i should rly let nature take the course. Meanwhile, i must not harbour too much hopes. I hope i really can...