ni hao, now is 0540, and i'm still awake yes. spent my sat likea boring, slackkkkkkkkkkkkk.

Anyway, had a quarrel agn just nawww, yes agn. actually, it wasnt on purpose, omg how should i say? I mean, i didn't rlly wanna pick a fight with him, but i'm sry my emotions just got over control me. yes, my attitude sucks so much, i know thats my fault. Ok, i dont wanna find excuses for my attitude problem. These few weeks had been quarrelling likea endless, over trivial thing, wtf right, i know. We always fight over the littlest thing, i find it so hard to survive but i won't give up boy. just hurt my heart extremely hard that you just allow your brothers to decide timeout for our relationships, and everythg just becomes my fault. i dont know why did their words mean so much to me, and i dont know how much my words mean to you. i'm super fucked up with school, family, and recently over you. everythg just tryna go against me, i gonna deprived from peace. Well, i know patience guys are hard to come by, i just expect you to spend more time with me, aint that hard right? we would just yell at each other after talking for a few minutes, or even few seconds. I hate this, we both hate this, but we cant control. and often, both of us dont really take the initiative to talk just because of pride. i ate up my own pride for so many times before i met you, now i'm afraid of throwing my pride away anymore. i hope you will understand me more, at least try, but i know you wont cos you wont be able to read this, you arent even aware i'd blog._. Ok enough of rantings, bedtime nawwwwwwww. Nightz.