hey it's been 9 days. how are you? did you miss me or maybe even think of me? did i ever cross your mind after that day? i wanted to ask you so much but i know i will never get any replies, or maybe hurts. it really hurt when i found out that, you burned away all of our photos, every single one. you threw away the green hairband i gave you once you know i'm at the bbq pit. i don't understand why it's so hard for guys to be friends with girl after break up. it ain't so hard you know. maybe guys are afraid to get hurt, so they rather hurt the girl first. Maybe? Idk.

guess what? i just realized, actually there'd already problems in this relationship earlier on just that both of us aren't aware back then or our thinking were like, let it go, it will pass. so we end up here, like today. its so hard for me to sleep now. you are so heartless now, playing hard to me. its really diff before and after. idk what can i do to sleep for more than 10hours now. which in the past i can do it easily. sleeping pills? nah it'll affect my health. FUCK THIS SHIT.

i miss so many things happened on us before. just the both of us.

i miss sending you home.

i miss you sending me home.

i miss your sweet messages.

i miss your hugs.

i miss your lips.

i miss you accompanying me to polyclinics to fake mc.

i miss you telling me how much you miss me and love on the phone.

i miss the feeling of being love by you.

i miss you telling me how much you're afraid to lose me.

i just miss you so effing much.