ended.
yes, we are over. yea just like that. this time he seemed certain that there's no way back, impossible to be back agn. woah, its fucking hurtful. but there's nthg i can do. i want his heart, not just his body. these two weeks everything seems so fine, out of a sudden he initiated a break up. you know, this feeling is scary,at the same time terrible. i guess even tho how much im willing to change, its no use. to him, i'm bad or even worse. but he never know how i'm feeling. and sorry dont always cure. if sorry can bring back everythg, people will keep err.
i'm thinking about those days, months ago, when we just met. and i miss it so much, yea just so much. i cant imagine what things happening right now. we were so fine back then. before we get tgt, we were so fine. no quarrels at all. no hard feelings at all. as time goes by, feelings grown to him. but i kept mum, i didnt tell anyone. cos i thought we were impossible to be tgt. and i dont wanna hurt myself by confessing. however, after awhile, people noticed about my feelings. i still remember that day when he chose to be with me, i send him home, and slacked at his house dwnstairs. we talked, and he promised never make me cry agn. i was delighted, i'm way too happy. everythg were so sweet at first, but now, we are apart. or maybe strangers. i know i cant behave this way, and talk this way, its so failure. but i have no choice, srsly gonna breakdown... i told myself i have to be strong, yes i have to. and i will.
i miss the days when we do nthg but slack.
i miss the days i sent you home even before we are tgt.
i miss the days you call me mummy.
i miss the days you call me baby.
i miss the days you say you love me.
i miss the days you make me feel loved.
i miss the days you tell me you miss me.
i miss your smile.
i miss your lips.
i miss your kisses.
i miss your hugs.
i miss every time spent with you.
i miss everything i did with you.
i miss everythg you said to me.
i miss you.
but i know, you wont be back. maybe you're better off without me. i told myself this. let go, amanda. he's not yours now, and forever. he's gone. yes i know.
love is just so hurtful. bye.
