thoughts.
sup. its been two days. the time is like crawling, idkwhy it feels like two years. i'm feeling so deprived from sleep, cos every night i'm afraid of getting to my bed. when i lie on my bed, memories automatic run through my head. and the feeling suck. idkwhy i'm doing this to myself over someone who can do better without me, asking me to fuck myself off from his sight. I SRSLY DKWHY. friends ard me telling me to let go, and i think i should and i must too cos facts wont change. i still have to face the reality. i know i know i know, but i just cant do it. failure much? i said i've moved on, yes i'm trying. i know i will, in time to come.
For you.
i looked through your status, yes in another way i stalked you all the way to February. i read every single status you post, yes every. you can do so much for her,Draft more when you know she's meant to be bad, a player in love. you dont mind what you get in the end, you just go for her. your post definitely show that you love her alot, and i can see that you're being damn emotional cos of her. almost from the first day you add her on fb, till the day you two ended, you post about her in whtever ways, good or bad or sweet or sour as in jealous. jealous over her when she also dont even know how to behave. you gave her chances, and time to change just that she failed. but what about me? you just dump me off when im tryna change halfway. everyone thinks for you, but me? i'm just a girl, what do you expect? at least i know whats the basic and i did what i should. its really damn sad to feel that, i dont worth your love at all. just becos of her, you think im the same too. pretty unfair, but i know love is never fair. you said by hurting me you don't feel happy too, but you are still hurting me even if you didnt do anythg. wherever i go, reminds me of you. whtever i do, reminds me of you. and however hard i tried to stop thinking about you, i fail. but you? you wont be there for me anymore, cos you can just let go like that, just telling me you think we are not suitable for each other. and hurt me with your words which you know its hurtful. meeting other girl just the next day we broke up. this r/s cant be save anymore, i know. this r/s is officially over, i know. you dont want this r/s anymore, i know. i cant bring your heart back i know. everythg i did with you, i will remember. everywhere i go with you, i will rmb. thats the only way to let you go, but keeping everythg to me.
maybe you'll be happier with her. idk when i will get over, even if i dont, i wont let you know. i thought we could last, but i was wrong. im sorry that i didnt manage well enough. its over i know.
being friends also cannot, pretty much disappointing too but well its ok. you cant be bothered anymore, yes? I WILL BE FINE. goodbye.
